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Clouds

INSOMNIA

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UNREQUITED
DREAMS

Painting and words by Casey Guidinger

Painting with a bed, nightstand with lamp, and a stack of three boxes stacked largest to smallest in a room with a purple floor on a white background

Acrylic on canvas

With a nod to the surrealists, particularly painter Gertrude Abercrombie, my intention with Unrequited Dreams was to put to rest a serial dream I’ve been having for over 10 years. The painting is an ode to the feelings of dissatisfaction and anxiety that arise when you wake up suddenly night after night and wonder what it is you haven’t done or dealt with during the day, to the unfulfilled need or desire that wreaks havoc on your subconscious and keeps you pacing around a room in the dark. Ultimately, the only way to make yourself feel safe is to put those feelings into boxes and stack them neatly in the corner. But what happens when you open them?

Cloud Cloud

SOMNILOQUY

Poems by Alyssa DiJoseph
Design by Doug Daniels

NIGHTMARE

There are some things I can’t explain:

the way I slipped into you
like a familiar embrace

how when I bite my tongue
I see scarlet
and taste nectar

sweet

sticky

dark

the way a gut punch
can give me the butterflies
and I’m winded
but I’m smiling

all razor-sharp edges
and gold-filled cavities.

I’m not sure how I got here.

Maybe I went left
when I should’ve gone right
or down
when I should’ve gone up

or maybe I’m
directionless

falling
ever
falling
to nowhere.

PARALYSIS

There’s something about the way
you hold me
like you know me.

Lying chest to chest
I can’t tell if we’re
breathing as one
or if I’m
not breathing at all.

I think I could stay here.

FALSE
AWAKENING

Under the night’s blanket
she reaches for my hand.

The corners of her eyes ripple
with remnants of laughter
as she whispers an invitation
I’m far too willing to accept.

She is a well-worn T-shirt—
comfortable, frayed, my favorite
and I don’t care where we go
as long as we’re together.

Look closer
Look closer
Look closer

She is not what she seems.

LUCID

With everyone else I am
unraveled

foggy eyes
and charred lungs.

With you I am

unbound

cherry cheeks
and silver tongue

everything

just a little bit clearer.

Cloud Cloud Cloud

ARCANA

Art by Nikki Rodriguez
Fortunes by Elaina Ilminen

There’s something about her. I’ve known her through past lives and multiple dimensions. Our two souls are drawn to each other through lifetimes.

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Revealed tarot card of a woman sitting cross-legged beneath drawn curtains

The Chariot

Life may pull you in opposite directions. Where does your compass point?

Upright
Control, willpower, focus, action, determination, success

Reversed
Forcefulness, opposition, obstacles, powerlessness, lack of direction

Revealed tarot card of a coin with an eye in the center. A slightly curved hand is displayed above the coin; an open hand is displayed below the coin.

Coins

The seed holds much potential. What will grow?

Upright
New opportunity, resources, stability, manifestation, abundance

Reversed
Scarcity, stinginess, deficiency, adversity, missed chances

Revealed tarot card of a chalice  in the center. A slightly curved hand is displayed above the coin; an open hand is displayed below the chalice.

Cups

Your cup overfloweth.

Upright
Love, new feelings, compassion, creativity, intuition, awakening

Reversed
Gloom, emptiness, cold, repression, creative blockage, absence of love

Revealed tarot card of a dagger  in the center. A slightly curved hand is displayed above the coin; an open hand is displayed below the dagger.

Daggers

There is no greater victory than one through adversity.

Upright
Breakthrough vision, clarity, success, truth, focus

Reversed
Confusion, doubt, miscommunication, destruction, hostility

Revealed tarot card of a woman sitting with one leg arched over the other with hands folded under the lower knee and head laid down on the upper knee

Death

Every chapter comes to an end. Turn the page.

Upright
Endings, transformation, transition, change, release, oblivion

Reversed
Resistance, negative patterns, stagnancy, decay, fear of change

Revealed tarot card of a woman with horns on her head crouched down on one knee

The Devil

Some say there’s no better dance partner.

Upright
Oppression, dependency, obsession, addiction, restriction, sexuality

Reversed
Release, independence, detachment, revelation, reclaiming power

Revealed tarot card of a woman sitting down turned 3/4 to her left side

The Emperor

Goals can lift you up or pull you down.

Upright
Authority, establishment, structure, stability, control, focus

Reversed
Tyrant, domination, rigidity, recklessness, undisciplined, inflexibility

Revealed tarot card of a woman standing with one arm held across the front of her body

The Empress

An empty throne will be filled. You can either step up or step away.

Upright
Creativity, beauty, femininity, nature, sensuality, nurturing, abundance

Reversed
Insecurity, negligence, creative blockage, dependence, smothering

Revealed tarot card of a woman leaning over to the side with one arm extended downward

The Fool

Step into the unknown with abandon.

Upright
Idealism, beginnings, originality, freedom, spontaneity, innocence

Reversed
Recklessness, naivete, riskiness, distractedness, gullibility

Revealed tarot card of a woman hanging upside down by her feet which are tied together. Her hands are tied behind her back.

The Hanged Man

Are you waiting, resting or wasting time?

Upright
Sacrifice, deliberation, pause, surrender, perspective

Reversed
Delays, resistance, stalling, indecision, apathy, disinterest

Revealed tarot card of a woman standing with her back turned, looking over her left shoulder with a lantern in her left hand

The Hermit

The journey inward can be the most perilous one.

Upright
Soul-searching, introspection, inner guidance, contemplation, solitude

Reversed
Isolation, loneliness, rejection, reclusive, withdrawal

Revealed tarot card of a woman standing with a staff in her right hand and her left hand raised in front of her

The Hierophant

The geese fall in line and form a V. Which way are you going?

Upright
Spirituality, religious beliefs, conformity, tradition, institutions, education

Reversed
Rebellion, freedom, ignorance, unconventionality, new methods

Revealed tarot card of a woman sitting with one leg arched over the other with her head resting on her hands and a glowing halo around her head

The High Priestess

Voices. Voices. Voices—they’re your own. Listen closely.

Upright
Intuition, sacred knowledge, divinity, subconsciousness, spirituality, mystery

Reversed
Secrets, withdrawal, silence, hidden motives, confusion, superficiality

Revealed tarot card of a woman sitting down turned 3/4 to her right side with wings extending from her back

Judgment

The pieces are coming together. The picture is becoming clear.

Upright
Judgment, rebirth, renewal, absolution, purpose

Reversed
Self-doubt, inner critic, self-loathing, inability to learn lessons

Revealed tarot card of a woman sitting profile with one knee raised, holding scales in her left hand and a sword in her right hand

Justice

However the scales weigh, the decision is firm and final.

Upright
Justice, fairness, consequence, truth, integrity, law

Reversed
Unfairness, avoidance, dishonesty, retribution, irresponsibility

Revealed tarot card of two figures standing and embracing. The left figure has a hand raised to the cheek of the right figure.

The Lovers

Take heed: At first, lust and love often look the same.

Upright
Love, romance, relationships, balance, choices, unity

Reversed
Detachment, indecision, imbalance, conflict, unrequited

Revealed tarot card of a woman standing with arms raised and a wandlike item in her right hand

The Magician

The heavens and earth are more alike than you may think.

Upright
Manifestation, resourcefulness, willpower, desire, concentration

Reversed
Manipulation, cunning, trickery, illusion, deception, untapped talents

Revealed tarot card of a wolf turning its head to look at a large circular moon image with lines radiating from the center right of it

The Moon

The dark side or the light—either way you’re on the moon.

Upright
Illusion, anxiety, confusion, intuition, complexity, secrets

Reversed
Clarity, conscious, understanding, release, peace, revelation

Revealed tarot card of a woman crouched down making a pouring motion with a pitcher in her right hand. Seven stars are placed above the woman, with the top center star as the largest.

The Star

Connect the stars in the sky. What shape do they make?

Upright
Hope, faith, purpose, renewal, inspiration, healing

Reversed
Despair, negativity, hopelessness, disconnection, despondence

Revealed tarot card of a woman with the head of a tiger sitting with her legs crossed resting her arms on the top knee.

Strength

The truest strength is vulnerability.

Upright
Courage, persuasion, influence, confidence, compassion

Reversed
Self-doubt, low energy, cowardice, weakness, inadequacy

Revealed tarot card of a large sun with lines radiating out from all sides.

The Sun

Brilliant light can be beautiful, or it can be blinding.

Upright
Joy, truth, warmth, success, vitality, confidence

Reversed
Obstructions, sadness, pessimism, conceitedness, unrealistic

Revealed tarot card of a woman standing with cups in both hands. She is pouring liquid between the two cups in midair.

Temperance

You’re floating—both in and on the water.

Upright
Balance, moderation, patience, purpose, calm, harmony

Reversed
Imbalance, recklessness, excess, discord, realignment

Revealed tarot card of a tower with billowing lines inside and out while a lightning bolt strikes near the top.

The Tower

Change doesn’t come from comfort.

Upright
Sudden change, upheaval, chaos, revelation, awakening

Reversed
Delay, resistance, fear of change, stationary, caution

Revealed tarot card of one crystal overlaying a second crystal in a cross pattern. A slightly curved hand is displayed above the coin; an open hand is displayed below the crystals.

Wands

The truest magic is within.

Upright
Inspiration, spark, growth, potential, passion, initiative

Reversed
Delay, drain, distraction, hesitancy, doldrums

Revealed tarot card of a wheel-like disk adorned with various shapes and symbols. A snake is curled around the disk.

Wheel of Fortune

Some forces spin out of control. Can we still claim our fate?

Upright
Good luck, karma, cycles, destiny, decision, fortune

Reversed
Misfortune, resistance, breaking cycles, uncontrollability, adversity

Revealed tarot card of a woman standing with her hands above her head with a long flowing fabric draped around her body diagonally

The World

You are revolving around something significant.

Upright
Completion, belonging, accomplishment, travel, harmony

Reversed
Shortcuts, delays, lack of closure, incompleteness, emptiness

Revealed tarot card of a woman sitting cross-legged beneath drawn curtains

The Chariot

Life may pull you in opposite directions. Where does your compass point?

Upright
Control, willpower, focus, action, determination, success

Reversed
Forcefulness, opposition, obstacles, powerlessness, lack of direction

Revealed tarot card of a coin with an eye in the center. A slightly curved hand is displayed above the coin; an open hand is displayed below the coin.

Coins

The seed holds much potential. What will grow?

Upright
New opportunity, resources, stability, manifestation, abundance

Reversed
Scarcity, stinginess, deficiency, adversity, missed chances

Revealed tarot card of a chalice  in the center. A slightly curved hand is displayed above the coin; an open hand is displayed below the chalice.

Cups

Your cup overfloweth.

Upright
Love, new feelings, compassion, creativity, intuition, awakening

Reversed
Gloom, emptiness, cold, repression, creative blockage, absence of love

Revealed tarot card of a dagger  in the center. A slightly curved hand is displayed above the coin; an open hand is displayed below the dagger.

Daggers

There is no greater victory than one through adversity.

Upright
Breakthrough vision, clarity, success, truth, focus

Reversed
Confusion, doubt, miscommunication, destruction, hostility

Revealed tarot card of a woman sitting with one leg arched over the other with hands folded under the lower knee and head laid down on the upper knee

Death

Every chapter comes to an end. Turn the page.

Upright
Endings, transformation, transition, change, release, oblivion

Reversed
Resistance, negative patterns, stagnancy, decay, fear of change

Revealed tarot card of a woman with horns on her head crouched down on one knee

The Devil

Some say there’s no better dance partner.

Upright
Oppression, dependency, obsession, addiction, restriction, sexuality

Reversed
Release, independence, detachment, revelation, reclaiming power

Revealed tarot card of a woman sitting down turned 3/4 to her left side

The Emperor

Goals can lift you up or pull you down.

Upright
Authority, establishment, structure, stability, control, focus

Reversed
Tyrant, domination, rigidity, recklessness, undisciplined, inflexibility

Revealed tarot card of a woman standing with one arm held across the front of her body

The Empress

An empty throne will be filled. You can either step up or step away.

Upright
Creativity, beauty, femininity, nature, sensuality, nurturing, abundance

Reversed
Insecurity, negligence, creative blockage, dependence, smothering

Revealed tarot card of a woman leaning over to the side with one arm extended downward

The Fool

Step into the unknown with abandon.

Upright
Idealism, beginnings, originality, freedom, spontaneity, innocence

Reversed
Recklessness, naivete, riskiness, distractedness, gullibility

Revealed tarot card of a woman hanging upside down by her feet which are tied together. Her hands are tied behind her back.

The Hanged Man

Are you waiting, resting or wasting time?

Upright
Sacrifice, deliberation, pause, surrender, perspective

Reversed
Delays, resistance, stalling, indecision, apathy, disinterest

Revealed tarot card of a woman standing with her back turned, looking over her left shoulder with a lantern in her left hand

The Hermit

The journey inward can be the most perilous one.

Upright
Soul-searching, introspection, inner guidance, contemplation, solitude

Reversed
Isolation, loneliness, rejection, reclusive, withdrawal

Revealed tarot card of a woman standing with a staff in her right hand and her left hand raised in front of her

The Hierophant

The geese fall in line and form a V. Which way are you going?

Upright
Spirituality, religious beliefs, conformity, tradition, institutions, education

Reversed
Rebellion, freedom, ignorance, unconventionality, new methods

Revealed tarot card of a woman sitting with one leg arched over the other with her head resting on her hands and a glowing halo around her head

The High Priestess

Voices. Voices. Voices—they’re your own. Listen closely.

Upright
Intuition, sacred knowledge, divinity, subconsciousness, spirituality, mystery

Reversed
Secrets, withdrawal, silence, hidden motives, confusion, superficiality

Revealed tarot card of a woman sitting down turned 3/4 to her right side with wings extending from her back

Judgment

The pieces are coming together. The picture is becoming clear.

Upright
Judgment, rebirth, renewal, absolution, purpose

Reversed
Self-doubt, inner critic, self-loathing, inability to learn lessons

Revealed tarot card of a woman sitting profile with one knee raised, holding scales in her left hand and a sword in her right hand

Justice

However the scales weigh, the decision is firm and final.

Upright
Justice, fairness, consequence, truth, integrity, law

Reversed
Unfairness, avoidance, dishonesty, retribution, irresponsibility

Revealed tarot card of two figures standing and embracing. The left figure has a hand raised to the cheek of the right figure.

The Lovers

Take heed: At first, lust and love often look the same.

Upright
Love, romance, relationships, balance, choices, unity

Reversed
Detachment, indecision, imbalance, conflict, unrequited

Revealed tarot card of a woman standing with arms raised and a wandlike item in her right hand

The Magician

The heavens and earth are more alike than you may think.

Upright
Manifestation, resourcefulness, willpower, desire, concentration

Reversed
Manipulation, cunning, trickery, illusion, deception, untapped talents

Revealed tarot card of a wolf turning its head to look at a large circular moon image with lines radiating from the center right of it

The Moon

The dark side or the light—either way you’re on the moon.

Upright
Illusion, anxiety, confusion, intuition, complexity, secrets

Reversed
Clarity, conscious, understanding, release, peace, revelation

Revealed tarot card of a woman crouched down making a pouring motion with a pitcher in her right hand. Seven stars are placed above the woman, with the top center star as the largest.

The Star

Connect the stars in the sky. What shape do they make?

Upright
Hope, faith, purpose, renewal, inspiration, healing

Reversed
Despair, negativity, hopelessness, disconnection, despondence

Revealed tarot card of a woman with the head of a tiger sitting with her legs crossed resting her arms on the top knee.

Strength

The truest strength is vulnerability.

Upright
Courage, persuasion, influence, confidence, compassion

Reversed
Self-doubt, low energy, cowardice, weakness, inadequacy

Revealed tarot card of a large sun with lines radiating out from all sides.

The Sun

Brilliant light can be beautiful, or it can be blinding.

Upright
Joy, truth, warmth, success, vitality, confidence

Reversed
Obstructions, sadness, pessimism, conceitedness, unrealistic

Revealed tarot card of a woman standing with cups in both hands. She is pouring liquid between the two cups in midair.

Temperance

You’re floating—both in and on the water.

Upright
Balance, moderation, patience, purpose, calm, harmony

Reversed
Imbalance, recklessness, excess, discord, realignment

Revealed tarot card of a tower with billowing lines inside and out while a lightning bolt strikes near the top.

The Tower

Change doesn’t come from comfort.

Upright
Sudden change, upheaval, chaos, revelation, awakening

Reversed
Delay, resistance, fear of change, stationary, caution

Revealed tarot card of one crystal overlaying a second crystal in a cross pattern. A slightly curved hand is displayed above the coin; an open hand is displayed below the crystals.

Wands

The truest magic is within.

Upright
Inspiration, spark, growth, potential, passion, initiative

Reversed
Delay, drain, distraction, hesitancy, doldrums

Revealed tarot card of a wheel-like disk adorned with various shapes and symbols. A snake is curled around the disk.

Wheel of Fortune

Some forces spin out of control. Can we still claim our fate?

Upright
Good luck, karma, cycles, destiny, decision, fortune

Reversed
Misfortune, resistance, breaking cycles, uncontrollability, adversity

Revealed tarot card of a woman standing with her hands above her head with a long flowing fabric draped around her body diagonally

The World

You are revolving around something significant.

Upright
Completion, belonging, accomplishment, travel, harmony

Reversed
Shortcuts, delays, lack of closure, incompleteness, emptiness

Back panel of a tarot card designed with lines radiating out from center in all directions with illustrations of differing moon phases in a single column Pick a card